Things You Didn't Know About Me
It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped. - Tony Robbins
I panicked when Prof Arce, giving me a prolonged, curious look, said, See me in my office after class. He had just handed back our exegesis of an intriguing poem, The Anchored Angel.
Did he see through my pseudo-expertise?
I went with that thread in my paper.
Being naive on details of intimacy, I used a borrowed sex primer to juxtapose each love-making metaphor against the applicable clinical description. (Note: it was an eye-opening discovery for me.)
I was so scared that he'd grill me to authenticate my knowledge. I was surely going to be bust.
Thank goodness, Prof had only one thing to say when I went to see him. How would you like to write for the Collegian?
I must have murmured a few words, then excused myself and exited.
So, did I?
You would have guessed from the blog title. I didn't.
I know you're asking, Why???!!
Did I not dream to be a journalist? See my name in print? Get published?
Yes, to all these.
I loved writing. I'd always wanted to live in a crazy, fantasy world with unrealistic expectations. I could shake off everything as I wrote. My sorrows disappeared, my courage reborn.
But at the time, I was laser-focused on only one thing: to graduate with honors.
I had to prioritize and make a choice.
As it was, my plate was already full - reading from two to three novels in two weeks, poring through exegetics, and writing analytical studies.
I'd known fully well that graduating from a prestigious university could land me a good job, but to graduate with honors on top of that? I could have whatever job I wanted.
Did I regret it?
Not for one minute.
That singular moment was but one step on my journey. I made the mark on no less than the UP Collegian adviser himself, a renowned Filipino writer.
I just didn't raise the bar. I shot it into the stratosphere.